05 September 2011

I wish i had more to say...

My computer never works anymore so I have to type these on my cellphone...yeah for technology? It's making it used for me to keep my commitment. For awhile there I felt like. Was getting so much out of what I was reading each morning because I would have these deep insights from the Lord. Now I read the passages and can't write about them so I barely remember them. As a reading teacher I know that making connections with a text is a FANTASTIC reading strategy but it's hard to do with just any verse...especially when it's talking about the same themes as always: as a result of God's judgment and wrath people will know that He is an awesome God. And there's no doubt that He is. He makes promises that He keeps. He gives and takes away but it's always for the best...

That was the lesson I got out of yesterday...yesterday we had the memorial service for a cousin of mine. I don't know if she's with the Lord now or nor but I pray that she is. It's so much harder when you don't know where they ended up. But for reasons only He knows, the Lord took her from this earth. Just like He took Ezekiel's wife, He took my cousin. Not so we could greive and be sad. People die...it's the nature of the world we live in. We can greive but if we mourned everyone who left is it would never stop. Sure it's harder when they aren't a believer but eventually we have to move on...

I know all that comes across as insensitive but it's what I got.

In other news, I'm feeling like I'm very close to becoming like the daughter talkes about in metaphor in this book...you know the whorey ones...it's not who I want to be but I feel like it's my default setting sometimes...I know that's a lie and that my default setting is now Daughter of God but still....these are the things I deal with...

For not having much to say, my thumbs are really tired...

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