Rejoice

Though the fig tree should not blossom, nor fruit be on the vines, the produce of the olive fail and the fields yield no food, the flock be cut off from the fold and there be no herd in the stalls, yet I will rejoice in the Lord; I will take joy in the God of my salvation. God, the Lord, is my strength; he makes my feet like the deer's; he make me tread on my high places.
-Habakkuk 3:17-19

Even when things are bad, you have to praise the Lord. Even when 4th period is insane, and you're 7th period just won't listen, you have to praise the Lord. Even when you have no lesson plans for Monday and no time to write them, you have to praise the Lord. Even when you have a friend who sucks the very life out of you, you have to praise the Lord. Because even when all else fails, the Lord is everlasting.

"The eternal mountains were scattered; the everlasting hills sank low. His were the everlasting ways."
-Habakkuk 3:6

At the end of the day, only one thing matters. Even if teaching blows up in disaster, at least I have the Lord. What I'm struggling with is working as if for the Kingdom while still being Jesus to my friends. It's a fine line and I think I'm on the side of being a work-a-holic. I'm addicted to those kids though. I can't be an ok teacher, I have to be the best. I won't settle for anything less because I am doing this for the Lord. I can't just halfway plan for them, or take the easy way and lecture to these kids. No! I have to carry out my ideas. I have to give 5000% because that's what they deserve. Is it killing me? Probably. Is it making me stressed about making other commitments, heck yes! I wasted hours yesterday just chatting because I couldn't bring myself to excuse myself. I have a lot to do and no time to do it. I'm kicking myself because I wasted so much time this past week. I feel disorganized and in chaos. MAHARAYAHRAHAHRARHG!!!

But the Lord is an everlasting God. His are the everlasting ways.

We got this.